If you just read the other journal entry then you may be curious as to what the hell I am talking about .
In the past year I have not been the best person .
I have been a piece of shit .
Right now in my life I am trying to change it .
But before that I hurt someone who meant alot to me .
She helped me when no one else would .
and in return I treat her very VERY badly .
I made comments I should not have
I did things that in all honesty someone should beat me for doing .
She has no reason to believe me or trust me .
But none the less I feel like I should tell everyone how terrible I have been .
I do not believe I am the same guy .
in the past 2 months I have changed alot about myself .
Anyways i want everyone to know that I am very sorry to
Lola
I have been a true jack ass to here and that is putting it mildly
She is a very awesome lady and should always be treated as so .
I have not done that in the past and I truely feel terrible sick to my stomach upset with the person I used to be and how I treated such a wonderful person .
I am sorry Lola .
from the bottom of my heart .
I wish you the best in your life .
