And I apologize!!! This actually use to be one of the ONLY journals I posted in. Now I have tons. I rather make every entry personal. Because I think it's lame to just copy and paste every time I have something to say. Which I'm actually guilty of a couple times. Whoops. :P

Anyway, I quit the dungeon. It's too much work for me at this moment. Plus, it's definitely something I don't see myself doing 10 years down the road. Money isn't very consistent with it anyway. Being an alt girl kind of sucks in that business too. The mainstream girls usually get sessions handed to them. It doesn't even matter if they are drop dead gorgeous. They just have to be "innocent" looking. So fuck that, I am not competing with mainstream. Being discriminated in a such community is retarded. Maybe I just need a break from it. I might possibly consider going back part time in a year. If it doesn't work out again, I'll know it's not meant to be.

This year is going to be a good year for me. I have a bunch of features released in 2008. My first feature will be out next month for ba. Then the Spice/Playboy movie will be out sometime in Spring. That's pretty much back to back. I'm super excited!! Oh and, sometime over the next few months I'll be trying to shoot a bunch of content for my own site. I haven't bought the domain or designed anything as of yet. But it doesn't hurt to get as much content as I can for the time being right? :D

Oh also, I have BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG news. It's basically life changing. Or at least feels that way. Ready? So, I've stopped drinking, doing drugs, and having sex. GASP!!! Ha yeah, I'm trying celibacy and sobriety for once. It was super hard at first, mainly because I am an alcoholic. But the more I was at bars with certain individuals (mainly Apathy and Dusty), the easier it was for me to find fun without being intoxicated. I just like to have fun, act like an idiotic retard, and dance. I'm so glad to have friends to support my decisions. It makes my whole world a lot easier. I know you're probably saying, "Celibacy? But she does porn!". Correction, porn is a job. It's a lot of work. Ask anyone who does it, they will say the same thing.

Well, that's a bit of an update of my current state. Joanna and I might be doing some warped dates, and making appearances. She's going to talk to bands this week after the Holidays. So, we might be in your city at some point this summer. I'll keep you all posted on what dates I'll be on. I'm having 8x11's printed out for me, so feel free to ask for a signed one when you see me.

Okay, time to rap up my rambling. Love you all!! Ciao! <3