i am just to much damn pain lately.  its not extreme but consistently annoying every damn day.  last year my leg started to really bother me.  i was having a lot of muscle spasms and well now it feels like the muscle is a bit damaged from that.  its a shitty place too on the back of my leg right above my knee.  i dont know the name of the muscle.  but then add the fact that that knee is a bit on the bad side and the kicker of that leg is shorter so its just an evil combo.  but it seems my whole left side is just jacked.  cause i got the bad left shoulder pains on the left side of my neck and chest pains all on the left side.  i wouldnt be surprised if the whole thing ends up paralyzed one day.  ive been dealing with this for so long and im finally starting to get fed up with it.  and yes i know i should see a doctor and no i dont have any insurance so i sure as hell aint footin that bill.  i hate bitchin like this but damnit i needed to get it out so i can feel a bit better bout myself.  but this is all what leads me to taking so much ibuprofen a day.  i keep a BIG bottle with me at work and at home.  a lot of people think im some kind of junkie and well maybe i am in some sort of way but its the only way i can deal with it unless i want to start doing drugs again and i dont wanna do that cause ive been clean for almost 2 years.  well im off to go lay down and read my new comics